Monday, May 11, 2009

DEAR MOM

I am 23 years old now that means 23 years ago. You had me. Everyone has expressed that you spit me out. I believed their reference was saying: “I look like you.” WELL! I do not know if they meant of me being your exact twin. But I do know that I have your eyes. I have your eyes that have the ability to look at the world with no limits. Truthfully I had always believed that I do not deserve them. Having your eyes meant to me that I am your reflection and that has always scared me. One of my greatest fears was I will never live up to your expectations. Then I realized that you never judged me. You just have a need for me to be happy.

But Mom, you must know why I feel that way. All my life, I have watched you work so hard for Howard and I. So we could have a better life. In result to you, I had always wanted to give back to you by being my best self. At the moment, I am in South Africa. I had a need to prove to myself of making my dreams possible. I did. I am a professional dancer and better yet an international one. I am working in advertising. On top of that, I have pushed myself to be my ultimate being of living in my culture and making it on my own.

However after 23 years, I still you more than ever. I have a love/hate relationship with South Africa. After I had gotten out of my depression of financial issues, I had really opened my eyes to the purpose of me coming here. While in deep thought, I believe my whole life prepared me for South Africa. Remember all those dance classes to filling different than everyone else in high school. To College, I met Natty and Dr. Carter both residents in South Africa. To the family, that had all made me have an urge to learn about culture. With all of those experiences, I realized early on that I had to find my destiny because the power has always been within me.

Now, I thank you for being my mother. For all your hard work, strong being your ability to make me love myself, your education, beauty, your example of hope for true love, your heart, your understanding, your cooking, your laugh, and of course your eyes.

With your eyes of seeing no limits, I ask you to be mother even more in my old age and help me choose my next step in life. In my adulthood, I feel that I need your more than ever.


HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO THE GREATEST MOTHER ON EARTH


“DREAMS COME TRUE”


“EVERYTHING ALWAYS WORKS OUT FOR ELSIE”