JANUARY 5, 2004 – THE BUSH (THE PUB/RESTAURANT I WORK FOR.)

Today, I woke up early to go running and I cleansed the body and mind with cardio. Along with Morning Prayer, I was prepared for the day. BOY! Did I need my mental and physical cleanse.

At the BUSH I meant a lot of different people. I meant this boy with red hair and he had black coffee with a rare T-Bone. It was his birthday and he was there with the whole family including his drunken father.

On the flip side, I meant two business men. They had given good advice on opening franchises. Through out the day, I had interesting people come in. It was toward the end of the day and I had just finished the book, THE SECRET. The secret has happened to be such a wonderful enlighten book. I recommend it to all people as a self help book.

It was going toward 8:00pm and I usually get of at 5:00pm. As I cashed out my last customer, I had a curious customer that I had asked to speak with me. He was curious about my arrival to South Africa.

In response to his curiosity, I said to him “for the experience.” I had a long day and I just did not have a patience to explain my whole existence in South Africa. But I ended up staying at the BUSH for another hour talking to this man. I just could not leave the conversation.

The man was in between believing in God and Atheist. He believed in 80:20. According to my understanding of his explanation, this belief was based on each person consisting of 80% good and 20% bad. He never said that he did not believed in GOD but he did not say he believed in GOD. He said: “I do not believe he created the Earth, Heaven, Animals, and most importantly human beings. He went on talking about a limbo. According to him, the limbo was the place before heaven where people just float around the area mostly unborn died babies. I was not aware of all the information being voiced out to me. Simply because I do not personal believe in his beliefs so I do not spend extra energy putting that information in my mind. Then he questioned my intelligence and I said only one higher power has the right to judge me…… GOD

How did this conversation come up? Well…..I finally told him about my drive to come to South Africa. I am in South Africa because of my faith. The faith in God having a plan for me and I am going to go with the wave lengths of my destiny. I am attacking the steps to achieve it.

As a Christian, I do not argue. I have discussions so I answered all of his beliefs with scriptures. At the end of the conversation, I did get disturbed with his presence because I felt this evil vibe around him. The conversation did get heated that this other man intervened. He said to me: “I am inspired by your faith because I could see your positive spirit.” After this man said that to me, I looked at the 80:20 man and I could tell of his unhappiness because of his look of uncertainty of existence. As he consumed more beer, I noticed this look on his face.

In the end, he had his beliefs but never explained it accurately. Simply because he just did not know. He expressed about this force creating everything but he could not say where or what the force had come from. So we ended the conversation because it was not going anywhere.

However the conversation did affect me because the man’s eyes had held corruption of the world. I actually had come home crying and I prayed to my creator. I told him “OH LORD YOUR ARE A POWERFUL GOD TO CREATE HUMAN BEINGS WHO ACTUALLY HAVE THE COMPLEX BRAIN TO THINK AGAINST YOU. “

I had come out of my prayer and I had promised myself. I am going to be a better prophet. I am going to fill myself with the word. I am going to be my creator’s image.

As I head to sleep, I thank GOD for giving me the opportunity to have that conversation because it tested my faith. I found out that I know myself. As time goes by I do not fear myself in terms of my abilities, I am allowing myself to be an unlimited being that could accomplish anything.

We often get distracted with this thing called our body and our physical being. That just holds your spirit. And your spirit is so big it fills a room. You are eternal life. You are God manifested in human form, MADE TO PERFECTION. ~Lisa Nichols

IT’S A NEW YEAR

JANUARY 4, 2009- I AM A BIG SISTER

NOTE: The first Sunday of the NEW YEAR. Yes! I went to church

Having a sister is like having a best friend you can't get rid of. You know whatever you do, they'll still be there. ~Amy Li

I am a big sister of one male sibling. Even if my brother is more muture than I, I am still his big sister. Being his big sister, I am still in need for him to look up to me. My need is easier said than done. My brother is very accomplished and we consist of two different brain waves. I am an artist and his a academic. Even through our differences, we are best friends. Until this moment of being away from him, I realize my biggest fan within him.

Ever since my exile to South Africa, I talk to my brother frequently like always. His always says, “YOU NEED TO GET YOUR ASS BACK.” This strong expression is coming from him missing me. Being his a male, he does not express emotions like I do. I tend to be more detailing with a dramatic approach.

As I grow within myself. I realize to erase needs and to replace them with faith.

I am having faith in myself because my brother always held faith in me. Secretly, my need for his approval is a drive for me to be better. So I am being better. With a combination of his support and my faith, I am better. NO! I AM MORE THAN BETTER. I AM BEST.

I am doing everything to my best ability. Currently, I am surviving the storm and I am seeing the beauty of life. My blessings are even more visible to me.

Some of blessings……
I see my worth. THANK YOU LORD
I see the beautiful country of South Africa that I am in. THANK YOU LORD
I see the great new Christian people entering into my life. THANK YOU LORD
I see my true supportive group of family and friends. THANK YOU LORD
I see my ability to connect to people. THANK YOU LORD
I see my ability to adjust in every situation. THANK YOU LORD

Currently my situation is adjusting to serving at a Rhodesian PUB/RESTAURANT. Do not worry I am still dancing.

Anyways….I am new to South Africa, I thought of this being a great way of meeting new people and getting information for my upcoming company.

OK! My future company consists of dance, food, dance education, and pure entertainment with a Southern African vibe. I am fusing all my loves into one company.

SORRY! I can not reveal details of my company. Being this is the internet, my ideas for my company might influence someone for their own ideas. It is just business my readers.

So the Rhodesian PUB/RESTAURANT is called “BUSH.” At the BUSH, I meet all sorts of people. Most of them are all from either Zimbabwe or South Africa. They all ask me two questions: 1) Where is your accent from? 2) As an American, what are you doing in South Africa? I always answer for the experience. I mean not many can say: as an American, I find myself in an African Contemporary dance company and a Rhodesian PUB/RESTARUANT. Well I can say it. Also I can say, “I AM HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE NOW AND I AM APPECIATING EVERYDAY.”

I thank my bro for always believing in me. Mom and Dad always say, “its just the two of you make it work.”

Even if I came through some difficulty of adjusting, he always will keep me patient. Now! I am seeing my patience lead me to the pathway of my destiny. I am the big sister but I look up to you.

“TRUST YOUR SUPPORT GROUP”